Beautiful world With all its many inconsistencies Beautiful world And I let it pass me by All that space is frightening So I locked myself in my room Beautiful world And how I chose to let it fade away Beautiful world I did not deserve your grace Your mercy and patient voice So I locked myself in my room Beautiful world The love it gives you can’t reciprocate Beautiful world You are always lesser than What’s the point of living it You should lock yourself in your room

Out of the darkness Into the opulent the Fingers are ready Stroking some lines upon the Vulgar Queen Praising the filthy Purging the mediocre Forgeries fallen All is authentic with the Vulgar Queen Drunk in the alley There goes the dumpster lady Screaming at pigeons Those are her patrons it’s the Vulgar Queen She is your mother She is creation’s folly Raising her children Waxing umbilical the Vulgar Queen

Who is the dreamer and who’s the dreamed Who are the ones that remain unseen Absent from reality If I am one of them will your dream of me All the specters will cry from the land of naught Doomed to inhabit the thoughts unthought Praying for atomic form Wanting any sensation if cold or warm There is no way to know whether we all exist Or if we are just specks in ethereal mist But we live like we’re real and the consequences Of our actions will affect the nature of Our universal sense of looming dread That we’re the nothingness of an eternal sleep None of our memories meant to keep All in someone else’s head Never truly alive but the heedless dead Although transient realms of the world perceived Mean that we have all just been deceived Thinking that our reveries Are the evidence of actualities Just because we can dream doesn’t mean we are real And our certainty that what we touch we can feel Could be simulations governed by outside hands That manipulate with sheer malevolence for All the puppets with their brittle strands Dancing in step for a mortal god Doesn’t that strike you as sort of odd Living in complicity With the forced movements of choreography Even though this could be fabricated time I will proceed as if what is mine Is the only thing that’s true So when I go to sleep I will dream of you

There is no identity There is no fixed personhood Just a crass corporeal Structure of a thought That is you All that is true What can you do You attempt control of it You can practice mindfulness Hope to disassociate From the burden of Your desire What you acquire Is just a liar Speaking in tongues Parroting language in your lungs But your blessed ignorance Lets you sense a source of will The illusion of a spark That comprises shards Of a soul Not quite a whole But that’s the goal You will never unify Doesn’t matter if you’re close There is always space between The atomic tics In your mind You’ll never find Forever blind Watching it back All of your memories in black I have sworn a thousand time That the vision of myself Is a picture of the real But the doubting voices Prevail Images fail They’re just too frail And the source of happiness Splitting individuals Pairing souls of disparate Origins into The sublime Unions in time Force them to rhyme But they don’t fit And you have wasted all of it

Alone Alone We live and die alone Afraid Afraid We’re made to be afraid But there’s hope Only brief Grasping for a sense of relief No more rest Only toil Till we leave ourselves to the soil Unborn Unborn I long to be unborn Apart Apart I want it torn apart Merciful Thantos Beckons me to embrace her close To return To the womb Let her body become my tomb Alive Alive The horror comes alive Undead Undead I need to be undead Rotting flesh Will decay Maybe then I won’t feel this way Until then I will wait For escape from this separate fate

Screaming thoughts Suffering that seems like only I can hear But I know that hurt is always universal in its Ambience And I know all of you can it too But it’s always there In my head Wish that I could just remove it So silence Could take me Away And I can’t Can’t ignore the constant chattering of doubt Even though I’ve tried so many operations meant to Exorcise Hopeless ghosts from the corners of my mind Whispering to me We’re still here Trauma goes on till forever But still my Delusions Will say Don’t let psychic feedback consume you Carry on Try to let in the love But its not enough Futility reigns supreme Taking life Obstinate I refuse to try and right my many faults In this way I have some meager apprehension of my Willfulness If I choose to embrace the screaming thoughts So I let them come Wrap around And constrict me with their comfort But still those Delusions Will say Don’t let psychic feedback consume you Carry on Try to let in the love But its not enough Futility reigns supreme Taking life Don’t let psychic feedback consume you Carry on Try to let in the love But its not enough Futility reigns supreme Taking life

Black hole sucking up the Last soul in the galaxy Leaving nothing to spread its entropy Leaving nothing not even memories No life to transform energy And I’m ready to see the Black hole shattering the Glass bowl of our little earth Looking outside a consequence of birth Looking outside a cage for what it’s worth Escape discorporate with mirth Feeling better as dirt the Breakdown to atomic dust is why I try to attempt justify Sloth and general inaction ‘Cause I know attraction To the well of fat will come some wondrous date the Black hole makes me want to Lack goals progress is a myth Evolution is just a shameless grift Evolution will fall into the rift There is no magic monolith Made to edit the gift the Black hole forces me to Act cold even though I need A relation unto the human breed A relation which means that I’ll be freed From though or any sort of creed I’d be happy and we’d go Sailing through the endless void And never bicker or get annoyed at each Other but our time together Surely will endeavor To deplete the knowledge gained from the discreet Black hole density and Mass old stars that die with spite On the surface disturbing all the light On the surface and oceanic night The truth an omnipresent plight To desire delight the Black hole shimmering with Fractals and the secret source Of all being as nature takes its course Of all being the elemental force Will make the universe divorced From all hope of remorse

All will be forgiven If you seek redemption All sins and transgressions will be Washed away in time It’s a lie It persists Because we’re weak We can’t admit The truth to ourselves So we say All will be forgiven Through our benedictions Some equation lets us Understand our bodies’ worth But the math Is obscured Despite our work Unknown unbound The stars will defy Our desire All will be forgiven Even for the wretched Not in any heaven but Inside the cold cold ground So we wait For the day When we may pass Into the grave Then we will have love Surround us

They’re coming to take you away With bright yellow eyes fingers like needles They’re coming to take you away They’re coming to take every last little part of you Shadows circling the room Objects losing their integral physical Qualities transcending space They’re coming to take you away They smile with sharp teeth grasping your shoulders They’re coming to take you away They’re coming to take what you thought was your body and Floating nude in the cold Ether trembling hastened with Mindless eternity you disappear They’re coming to take you away They sharpen their orifice open They’re coming to take you away They’re coming to take all your arrogant notions of self All your thoughts and all your delusions And all the ruptured spirit intrusions And all your joys and all your pretensions And all the little spiral dimensions And all your faith and all your derisions And all the poorly rendered decisions And all your doubt and all your corruption And all your brutal failed seductions Will cease and you’ll be at ease Living without your pointless fears I wonder how this non-existence’s non-materiality Will appear to someone like yourself who’s a corporeal entity And all your pride and all your tomorrows And all the precious time that you borrowed And all your debts and all your aggressions And all the shameful carnal obsessions And all your hate and all your disguises And all the schemes your conscience devises And all your cells and all your intestines And all the big unsettling questions Will cease and you’ll be at ease Living without your pointless fears I wonder how this non-existence’s non-materiality Will appear to someone like yourself who’s a corporeal entity I wonder how this non-existence’s non-materiality Will appear to someone like yourself who’s a corporeal entity I don’t know what you’ll even see I don’t know what you’ll even be A nothing Maybe a something Maybe a spirit Maybe a thing in between They’re coming to take you away They’re reaching for you arms elongated They’re coming to take you away They’re coming to take what you’ve taken for granted they Tear off all of your skin Gently rending the muscle the fat and the Bone and the marrow and blood They’re coming to take you away How lucky you’ll be when you are with them They’re coming to take you away They’re coming to take all the pain and the pleasure away